The
semi-autobiographical book by Lina Meruane is the story of an ocular hemorrhage
suffered by Lina, novel’s diabetic heroine. Like the novel’s author, Lina is
also a Chilean writer currently in New York pursuing an academic career. It has
been long known that there is a time bomb ticking in her eyes, but as to
whether it has a long or a short fuse, is not known. She has been asked to take
precautions, modify her day-to-day life style, and refrain from jerky movements
because any sudden move can rupture her veins and tear asunder her retina
leaving her blind. Unfortunately, that is exactly what happens.
Lina will now
have to make use of the eyes of Ignacio, her new boyfriend, who becomes her
guide, helping her navigate the narrow confines of the house, the chaotic
traffic on the roads, and the elbowing people on the streets. And when he is
not around, she has to teach herself to connect with the world in all sorts of
different ways – through sound, memory, and touch.
In a flight to
Chile she bristles when annoyance of fellow travelers turns to pity once they
realize that her bumbling progress in the aisle is brought about by her
blindness. Alluding to the alternate faculties that visually impaired can
recruit to manage their lives, she exclaims to herself:
“I am a blind
woman capable of detecting flashes of light, and, from afar, also the
compassion of others that came after surprise. Blind?”
It will be a
while before her doctor Lekz can take her up for surgery. So, he advises her to
proceed on her pre-planned vacation to Chile to meet her parents - her
emotionally deaf mother, and an ineffective father, both of them medical
professionals themselves. But, they cannot offer her much except abundance of
love. During her short stay in Chile she relies on her memory to help Ignacio
navigate around urban landscape riddled by pot holes and gaps blown in the
buildings in the aftermath of Chilean 9/11 moment - the military coup in 1973.
During her brief sojourn in Santiago, her lacerated childhood memories coalesce
together with her current blindness to alienate her further from her stifling
family, a burnt-out friendship, and a city coming to terms with its new
political identity.
She returns to
New York to undergo surgery that holds no promise. Lekz, her phlegmatic physician,
tells her that she may or may not regain sight, and should the surgery not go
well, science cannot yet come to her rescue. After her surgery and the most
agonizing wait, Lekz probes around her eyes to find out if it is a success or
not – a verdict that Lina awaits in terror:
“I wanted to
close my eye-lids, both at the same time, and return to the refuge of darkness.
That light illuminated emptiness, solitude, my absolute helplessness. I’m still
blind, doctor, but now everything is white.”
The novel
essentially examines how her illness progressively transforms Lina, her
boyfriend, and her elderly mother. Blindness, after all, is a corrosive
affliction that threatens all assumptions, routines, and protocols around which
they had built the edifice of their lives. And when blindness detonates amidst
them, they must confront the questions that fall out as debris.
Lina has to
resolve many things in her mind: how to avoid becoming a passive victim of her
misfortune, how to turn the adversity to her advantage, and how to dwell
amongst the seeing with her invisible present. She will have to borrow eyes
from others, eyes that see but impose their own set of realities. How to
conform to this reality, to subordinate her senses to others? Ignacio has to confront
the limits of her love for Lina and the Rubicon that it may entail crossing.
And as regards her mother, she has to choose between two roles - one that is
demanded by her daughter’s illness, and the other, that stems out of her
responsibilities towards her patients.
Lina’s gut
wrenching fury, her debilitating grief, and her instinct for self-preservation
combine together to propel the novel towards a climax that is as unexpected as
it is shattering.
Ms. Meruane
writing is brutal, chilling, and piercing: it claws with its talons, it
frazzles you, and it tears you apart with its raw power. There is no hiding
because where ever you turn, there is Lina’s world that has vanished, but she
is not yet prepared to let it go.
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